Making friends in college is harder than I thought it would be. I went into college with a set of friends coming from the same high school. At first, I loved this idea because I never felt alone and we all had similar classes because we had the same major.
Things were great and it was a blast. We made lots of memories and walkways hung out, we were the group that was so loud in the cafeteria. Fast forward a couple months and I go through a lot of changes and realize that I had a lot of fake friends. In March of 2022, my ex and I broke up and I also lost the majority of my friends with him. Some said that I was different than I was before, which didn't makes sense at that time because of course I wouldn't be the same, I was sad.... but that was beside the point.
Going through a relationship breakup and losing the majority of my friends left me in such a difficult situation where I did not know anyone and had to start fresh again. It also did not help that I changed majors last minute and it was already almost the end of my freshman year, so everyone had their own groups already.
It was hard especially because fresh out of a breakup I wanted to be surrounded by people I knew and wanted nothing to do with new people. But luckily while I did not make many friends, I ended up realizing the importance of focusing on myself and I rediscovered my love for reading and writing. I also learned who my true friends were.
Then summer came and I reconnected with old middle school friends and became the happiest I have been in a while. But sadly that had to end when school started again and I still realized I was in the same predicament. I was determined to make friends and I still am but it's hard to think positively when everything seems to not work out.
My old friend group spread rumors about me or told people things that made me look worse and made it hard for me to make friends. I guess that's the disadvantage of having a small school.
This time around though I'm not alone, I now have my boyfriend, and his friends and I also have made a couple of friends myself from my classes. Sadly though I would love to hang out with them but none of us have a car on campus and they also all have their own individual groups already but it's okay one day.
To this day I am trying to make friends but it's hard to put myself out there. But right now I am happy with the people I surround myself with. Though its just its weird in a sense because I am such a social person but I suddenly have so much trouble finding the right people at this school and I don't know I think covid really hindered my social skills.
But yeah, does anyone have tips on making friends on campus? I joined clubs but my old friend group was also part of those too;c
Ps. I know this is such a sad post-LMAO but I hope someone can relate and yes I have friends but barely any of them go here T^T
chat/rant soon, shannea x
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