Being an older sibling

 When I meet my current roomate she told me that I have an older-sibling-who-only-has-brothers vibe. I had never been more confused in my life as I was that day. But she was right, I am an older sibling and in fact I have only brothers. I had never stopped to think what qualities an older sibling has. Suddenly I remembered that back in middle school I used to carry in my school backpack bandaids, three different kinds of painkillers, a change of clothes, and shampoo among other things. 

Before you start to think I was crazy or before you call cps on my parents, I think it’s important to make clear I used to travel all the time and I have anxiety. Still, it sounds weird for a 13 year old to carry those things with her all the time huh? But I loved it. I was always expectant of my parents telling me they had packed my bags and we were leaving on a new trip. That’s when the content of my school backpack came in handy. I knew I had everything I needed with me all the time and wouldn’t feel anxious that my parents had forgotten to pack something. 

But how does this relate to my roomate guessing I am an older sibling? Apparently when I Al around I am always helping her fix things, even though she is older than me, I make food for her and have all those things younger siblings would forget to bring with them to college. But I think that me being an older sibling is the reason why we get along, she is the younger of three sisters. I am used to help and she is used to be helped. I am still confused on how she realized I only have brothers, but it was probably in the same way I guessed she only has sisters, gut feeling. 

I asked my friends what an older-sibling-who-only-has-brothers vibe meant. Apparently it means that I am a very chill person… my little brother would love to disagree. Old habits die hard, and even now when I am 9 hours away from my younger brother, I always try help him out with anything I can. Does being an older sibling mean to always live with anxiety? Or is it just me? 

Anna <3