You dont need to have it all figured out at the age of 18

Something that I find mindblowing is the fact that at the young age of 18, many believe or feel that we have to have our whole life figured out... Or at least many as in my friends and those around me. 

This aspect of life surprises me because of the fact that this is not the case everywhere. While there are those who are lucky enough to know what they want to do by that age, there are various who don't. There are even those who think they know what they want to do but change their mind later on.

I specifically fall under that category of one of those people who thought I had my life figured out but as soon as college hit I changed my mind. A lot of people believe I changed my mind because it was hard but honestly I don’t think that's truly the case. This is because while I think I might have known earlier in my life (as in my Junior year in High School) that I did not want to be a nurse, I ignored that feeling because of the fact that prior to the one moment of doubt, I always wanted to be a nurse.

Looking back though I don't know if I wanted to be a nurse just because my mom wanted to be one or because I truly wanted to be one. With that said, after taking a few classes in my freshman year I quickly realized and found myself wanting to write essays over studying for Anatomy and that's ultimately how I decided that nursing was not for me (+ the fact that I don't know how I would feel seeing death and also because even when I wanted to be a nurse, I wanted to be a nurse case manager)

After talking to both of my advisors and temporarily being a double major (Psychology and Communication) during my last quarter of freshman year, and going through so much, I ultimately decided to be a strategical / marketing communication major and so far I have enjoyed it and I find that I am more passionate about my major more.

With all of this said, hopefully, this is the right path for me though I still don't exactly know what job I want to ultimately get but one step at a time. I do want to say that I hope reading this comforts those who are contemplating their major and let them know they aren't alone. Societys expectations for us to know what we want in our life at such a young age is not realistic to everyone. 

chat/rant later, shan x